How can I in the hospital? Just remember before like got a bad headache......
The door opened and I saw how he Lin in here? I was a little puzzled.
He came over: you come to? Head still hurt?
I'm a little don't believe looking at him: what's the matter?
You are ill, how didn't tell me before? He looked at me and asked.
??????? What you are saying? I asked
You know what I'm saying, why you never told me? He then asked the.
I have nothing to say.
I know I'm ill, but you don't intend to tube I, reason all ignore me, do I need to tell you? The heart is very injustice to.
How do you don't talk? See I didn't talk, he began to question.
Enough is enough, you not talk to me? You don't have to in here, I die and are you all right? I can't help but loud roar a way to him.
If it weren't for others to call me, do you think I know? I don't know that I won't be here. He seems to also don't fiddle.
I simply ignore him, because my heart.
For a while, he dropped a: soup in vacuum flask, drink it, I walk first!
Before I from the quilt her head to, and he went away.
Nose up at acid, anyway, I still take he can't. He never do not belong to me. Feel very sad!!!!!
Since you were in fifth grade I will know that my brain steadily a thing, and then often have headache problem. Remember once, I a person in the bathroom, wash your face, I so faint. Then I heard the fuzzy mother cry to say: allison ah, 10 million don't have it. I want to open my eyes, but cannot open, and passed out. That's the afternoon thing, I know I was morning woke up in the hospital. Mother saw I woke up, and hastened to hold my head to say: it's all right, all right. But, dad, I saw her from us wipe tears in. Grandmother in uncle was there, and I don't know why suddenly so DuoRen came, because usually only the big occasion before they will get together. Top junior high school of time, I once again into the hospital, or because of the headache, lived half a month of the courtyard, ate a whole year, when every time extracurricular labor medicine, the teacher in charge all let me stay in the classroom. I asked my mother: I'm ill, right? And I grow in the brain that thing about, right? Mother said: which have ah. Don't blind to think, you very healthy. I believe that the mother said, because the patient's look is usually bad, but I usually look very good, like ep-red Apple.
In high school, I got into the city, but the focus of the high school family would let me stay can a the academic key high school. Reason is this way, I can live in every day, also can eat at home. In addition to some disappointment, I have nothing, because everything is made from childhood to give I arranged them. I believe that my parents never will only be good for me.
After high school, I test is provincial university. Be like at the same high school, they arrange for me into a year of this province university. The reason is, too far away from they don't trust. My uncle is three a professor of the university, so that can take care of get me. So I peace there three years after reading the heart.
After graduation from the university, I want to go to have long sought Shanghai. But mom and dad have contact with good, let me go to young aunt there to work. So I quietly to shenzhen. In young aunt there to work, do a accounting work. I learn accounting, but they don't like the industry. In young aunt there, every day and go to work, with her work together, eat together, live together. That day, I feel very boring. Later, the younger sister is most of the time boyfriend and her boyfriend together. At that Time I feel so long big, I finally had his own Free Time. So while amateur time to learn some design aspects of it, and young aunt and her boyfriend start to prepare for their wedding, I tell young aunt, I want to leave the company. Although she didn't say much, but I know she don't want me to go, the company's financial need a reliable to do. Finally I still left there.
Parents know, want me to go back to my hometown.
This time I did not agree, because I think that little city here than we better, I like here, even if competition is fierce, but some can also practice myself. I'm eager for a person's life, really longing. So long I have never been to in addition to home and other city in shenzhen, until now to feel oneself is free. I didn't go back to my hometown, but my father let me go to bed every day before sending a message to him, to express my well-being. I say, then I will before going to bed every night to dad send a message: I'm going to sleep, the father mother good night.
I have reached the age of the love, I hope to be like other people that go hand in hand in the park avenue trails. But I haven't, in the school the people around him were already beginning be in love, but I haven't, because my parents don't allow, because at that time I was very good. I don't know why my parents always don't allow me to love.
Later I met vin, we fall in love. I love him, as far as possible is good for him. He loved me as much as possible, to me.
But parents don't agree, reason is I now also is too small, should not be in love.
I told them I am 25 years old, a lot.
Mother asked me for I don't, and vin together.
I resistance: vin where do not?
He has no where do not, you just now should not fall in love. Please. This is my mom gave me is not the reason of reason.
I love them, because I believe they were always the love I, since I know this.
I gave up vin.
And I started a person's life, I am away from the city.
The day to computer, holding the mouse on the hook some figure, I think I'm a numb.
Early evening rush to go to bed after cool, but again always can't sleep, I feel I am lonely.
I didn't tell my parents, they already know, just didn't tell me." Sometimes a mirror to look at yourself, I still can't believe, the doctor said is true. I think I know the parents great effort in doing this, yes for guys like me is should not fall in love, but really sad.
Later met Lin, I feel that I have something to live head. And they began to work hard, to start real life.
But, I happened to live is his, but he did not need to me so for him. This bothers me, distress to want to die, for death to me should be within reach. I think that death is can get rid of everything, can let you not think no want to one of the best method. But there's I most love the person, I is their only hope. I'm dead they will happen, and to this day, I still remember that year in fifth grade, mother with the scene behind my back tears.
The second day, Lin and come to the hospital.
As with the soup is. I remember when I said soup, and gave him drink, he said he can go to buy downstairs; I said to help him to clean the room, he said he has been asked of homemaking company; He said he does not need to be good for him, I really don't need; I say to you, I really want to really don't need your return.
But he didn't accept it.
Now he soup for my drink, also YiKouKou feeding me. I should feel happy, but I was sad.
I bad-tempered up: you go, I don't want to see you. Really, you go.
I now it must look like a poor bastard, I don't want to him at this time in my side.
I'll have you abandon, until... He stared at the sprinkled on the quilt soup said
Until I die is? I head and the pain, a little weakness to roar.
Doctor, I'm sure is faint, wake up of time has been late at night.
I CeGuo head to look at Lin sat beside my chair.
I open what to say, his hand on the lip toward aware of don't say.
He said, I know I've some too. Hand with do want to take care of you, how are you, really, I hope you don't do something let oneself body bad things. Promise me good? Give me a chance.
I think: although this is what I expected, but you never give me a chance. So it's just because I life long? Have mercy on me?
Two days later, from their parents had to go to the hospital to drive. When they arrived, Lin also.
Then mom asked me: allison, that boy?
I said, he said he would take care of me.
Mother said: I see he is a good boy, if you like the other party said...
I interrupt the mother's words: I understand that, really.
Lin, come again I tell him: love is not a sympathy.
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